By the way

There is no way that you know me the way you should by now. Too bad for us. I thought we could make it thru anything. But as they say, the only constant is God. I thought I had a friend in you. The fact that we were lovers made the compound even more intimate. Now what do I have? A bowl of doubt and your love pokes at me like a fork. Stop It! If you don't I will explode soon. I'm trying to hold back from revealing too much of what's going on in my head. I see you like to point the finger of blame on me. My words and how I spoke them to you. Not only are you sensitive, you are weak. Call me when you grow a backbone. To lead a home and a family you are going to need one of those. While you are shopping for a backbone...pick up some integrity. Also, you will need a pound of self control and at LEAST a pinch of manhood. Believe it or not, all of this is FREE! You just have to seek it or else...you'll pay. Let me be clear about one thing, I am NOT your mother. Don't want to be. Refrain from saying that I try to be her because I have told you what to do a time or two. Be real, you wish I was her and then you wouldn't have looked so bad when I told you that time or two. Don't blame me for your short comings. I can't make you the man you are meant to be. Only God! Maybe if you tell God the truth (he knows it already anyway)you will have started the process. For me, you have to come to the table as a man...not a man in progress.